Quicksand

Feels like I've screwed everything up. Feels like I've lost the people who should matter the most. I know they're there. They haven't gone anywhere, just how it feels like.

For him who has my heart..

I can't be the same person I was with you. I don't know how long I can leave my heart in ur care & how long I can be taking care of yours. It all feels so messed up. So complicated. How I wish I could just go back to the days where nothing mattered but us but I need to figure things out and go my own way, if we are meant to be, I will return. Although, If we aren't and I return anyway, you might not be there for me when i get back.. If that happens I shall keep u in my heart and keep moving on. Right now I'm still trying. I don't know where my heart lies. I need time. Just give me time.

For him who has given me his heart..

I am not who you think I am and I can't give u my heart even though I know you are waiting for me. I know you will come back to me. I am waiting for you but I won't be yours. I can't. I shall give you all the time you need. I will wait here.

I make no sense but I really do wish I was somehow sinking in quicksand right now.